A Different Type of Blog Post.

Since this is a video game blog, I typically don’t blog about many “personal” things. However, I felt the need to share with all my gaming friends that my grandfather (I called him Grampy) passed away last night after nearly a year long battle with lung cancer.

I was very close to Grampy, probably due to the fact that my mom and I actually lived with my grandparents growing up. As a result, he often felt more like a father to me than a grandfather. Even after I grew up and moved out, I still made it a point to visit almost every weekend.

When I first learned he had cancer last year, my heart broke. I wasn’t sure how much time I had left with him, so I (along with the rest of my family) made the best of it. When he was going through chemo, he would take a steroid that stimulated his appetite, so we were constantly getting him all the junk food he wanted- his favorites included Pizza Hut, Chick-Fil-A and Krystals. We hung out, we watched TV (and tons of MMA fights, which he loved), we had fun conversations. I even got a tattoo on my ribcage to commemorate him which, to my surprise, he actually really liked! (He wasn’t big on tattoos at all)

He still kept his humor and his smile as his condition deteriorated. My only hope as the holiday season approached was to have one last holiday with all of us together, and my wish was granted. We gathered in his room on Christmas to watch a DVD of pictures and videos my uncle put together, and he had the biggest smile on his face the whole time. On New Years Eve, we crowded in his room to watch the ball drop on tv, and he again had the biggest smile on his face.

Yesterday, we all told him it was okay to move on. He had suffered enough. He didn’t say much, but he knew we were there. At one point I was holding his hand and when I moved my hand away, he grabbed it back. He passed peacefully at 11:32 p.m.

Though words cannot describe my grief, all I can say is that I am beyond grateful for almost 31 years of being able to spend time with Grampy. I am so grateful that I am so close to the rest of my family as well, and I love them all more than I can even say.

Thanks for reading this. I’ll be back with my regular video game postings soon- anything video game related seems to cheer me up!

22 thoughts on “A Different Type of Blog Post.

  1. I’m so sorry for your loss. It sounds like your grandfather was a happy and wonderful person and that you got to make some really special memories with him. I truly hope that in the coming days and weeks that you can hold fast to those things and find some semblance of joy in the sadness. My sincerest condolences and all the internet hugs I can muster go out to both you and your family.

  2. Sounds like you two were very close. It sounds like you had a good last moment with him, and I hope that gives you some peace. May he also rest in peace. I’ll keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

  3. I have been thinking about you a lot lately and I want you to know how sincerely sorry I am about the loss of your grandfather! You must have been so close to him! What a blessing it is that you got to spend his last days with him and watching him smile and hold his hand! I know that must have been difficult, yet still a blessing! May the happy memories of your grampy bring you comfort. Sharing in your sorrow. With love and friendship.

    1. Aww thank you so much! That really means a lot to me. It was hard to see him go downhill, but I’m happy I was there for him and I hope that brought him some comfort. His funeral is tomorrow and after that I think we can all move forward and start to heal.

      1. I meant to ask you earlier… How was the funeral? Did it go well? As well as any funeral can go..? Anyway, I hope the weeks have gotten easier for you since he passed. Sorry I haven’t been online as much as of late.. Life has gotten busy all of a sudden! But I am of course always thinking of you!! 🙂

      2. Sorry to hear you’ve been having a rough time! Hey, if you ever just want to talk or anything, just email me anytime. I would love to help in any way possible. Sorry that it’s been rough… I pray that things will get better for you very soon. 🙂 hugs..

  4. My heart goes out to you. I can’t imagine how hard it was for you to express this so eloquently as well as have to experience such a momentous loss. Your Grampy was an amazing person. That’s easily told by how heartfelt this is. I’m happy you and your family were able to spend this last holiday season with him and that he passed knowing you were all there and he was loved ;_;

    1. Thank you so much, that really means a lot! It was hard for me to write anything meaningful as there are so many thoughts swirling around in my head, but he was such an important person to me that I had to say something. He was very loved and I think he knew that ❤

  5. I’m so sorry for your loss, my friend. I know how it is to lose a loved one to lung cancer, as my father met the same end four years ago. It’s great that you got the last perfect memories of Christmas and the New Year, and all the memories of 31 years shared to hold on to. You will need them in the tough moments that will surely follow.

    1. Thank you so much! I’m sorry to hear your dad passed the same way. It is really hard to watch someone go through it. I am grateful for all the memories I had of him and I even brought up a few funny ones at his funeral yesterday- I feel like remembering the good times is one of the most important things to do right now.

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